Work!

I worked at the hospital today. It was definately a good day, a little long but overall a good....no a GREAT day. One of the girls in the youth group came to the hospital with her mom to see a paitent & she visited with me a little. It was nice. I love the youth in our group! It was kind of a sad day too.
Last week I was taking care of a patient who I've taken care of before. He wasn't doing well at all & I got home & was really worried about him. He is what we nurses call the "Perfect Patient", he never griped about ANYTHING, was ALWAYS nice, & even took time to ask about your family. In the midst of feeling horrible, (with every right seeing as how he was so seriously sick), he took the time to ask about my kids, he laughed and joked with the nurses who took care of him, & was always so sincere.
Well, I had been checkin up on him & found out last Friday that he passed away. My heart is broken. I'm still just soo sad. Today I was there at the hospital & thinking about my sweet little patient & thinking that I was seriously meant for this job. I was also thinking that most if not all nurses start out this way....soft, caring, & genuinely concerned about their patients & then over the years they turn hard, ugly, & just really don't give a rip about the patients. Seeing as how this is my first patient to have passed away that I really got attached to I wasn't quite expecting these feelings, (goes to prove I'm just a softy after all) but I hope that I can stay this soft for all patients as the years go by!